Tuesday, March 31, 2009

My fussy little monkey

Tuesday March 31, 2009

Hey Monkey,

We just found out that for the first time you are suffering from a minor infection. You have had a cold for about 3 weeks now but this weekend it seemed to turn for the worse as the cough turned wet, the nose mucus became yellow and you began to grasp your ear more and more. You have always done the ear grabbing thing as it appears to help you relax but the frequency at which you are doing it became apparent that maybe something is wrong. As it turns out, you have a minor ear, throat and sinus infection that requires treatment. Naturally you absolutely hate the stuff so trying to get you to take your medication is a battle within itself. Why are you such a fussy little thing? Why do you not eat your food? Why can you not take a bottle? Why can you not sleep on your own? Why is it that you are good as gold when with mommy and daddy but if Grandma or grandpa try to babysit you, you become so difficult and just scream and cry the entire time?

Mommy is going back to work in about 2 months and there is just so much more that you have to learn. We are worried about you monkey. You seem to suffer from separation anxiety and we are just not sure that you will get over it by the time mommy goes back to work.

Monday, March 30, 2009

What a bad weekend

Monday, March 30, 2009.

Hey Monkey,

That was the weekend from hell. On Friday you were so very very sick. I guess it was something you ate but you vomited about 10-12 times before daddy was even able to get home from work. It breaks my heart to see you like that, knowing very well that there is nothing that I can do. To see you so obviously very sick, crying out "dada dada" but ultimately offering nothing more than my love. We tried our best to keep you hydrated but still you would vomit out whatever we gave you. You had us so very worried little monkey but luckily by Saturday you were fine but whatever you had, you gave to Mommy and Daddy. We were both so very sick on Sunday and had to give you to grandma and grandpa while we slept. Lucky they were home because it allowed mommy and daddy the time to sleep, and sleep we did. We slept about 20 hours on Sunday and yet we are still so very tired and dizzy.

I want to write so much more but I am still so very dizzy and just want to sleep.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

There is no greater feeling in the world then to have a long and stressful day at work but to come home walk in through the door, hang up your coat and to watch your little monkey catch a glimpse of you and smile. That is exactly what you do. The moment you notice I am home from work or from going to the store or whatever it may be, a smile comes across your face and you then slowly begin to crawl towards me. It has become a habit this week! You struggle and grunt and pant as you make your way across the floor and sit beside my leg. You rest for a second, catch your breath and then grab hold of my pant leg and pull yourself up before finally looking skyward, opening your arms slowly and calling out "dada dada".

Any stress or for that matter anything else that may be on my mind is washed away with every little thing you do. Yes it is frustrating when you barely eat or barely sleep. Sometimes it is hard when mommy and daddy try to spend a little private time together. But a look into your eyes and my heart melts. You mean the world to me. You are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to us. We love you monkey.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Wednesday, March 25 8:11 am

2 nights in a row you have slept right through the night. Mommy and daddy are well rested and because you are getting enough sleep you are in a constant good mood. Let's hope you keep this up little monkey.

Last night we went to Auntie Amanada's house for dinner. We went to go see her before the family goes to Disney World. I am sooooo jealous because when you were still in the tummy of mommy we went to Disney as well. Seeing all those little girls smiling ear to ear dressed up as Cinderella or Snow White or Belle just made me anxious for the day that we can bring you. Mommy and daddy talk about this all the time because I am hoping to do so at age 3 but mommy wants to wait until you are much older. I just can't wait to see you running around in the happiest place on earth. I guess until that day can happen, we will just try to make you smile everyday regardless.

Monday, March 23, 2009

March 23rd, 2009

Hey Monkey, left me first tell you that we are back from Ottawa and you were such an amazing little girl. Mommy and daddy took you to the Ottawa-Montreal hockey game in Ottawa. Before the game I bought you a little pink Habs jersey. Its a little big so you will be able ton wear it for at least another year. Now you, mommy and I each have a Habs jersey to wear with pride. At the game you were the highlight of the game and every fan sitting in our area was in awe of how well you behaved. When the Go Habs Go chant began to gain momentum, you started to scream and yell. When the play quieted down you simply sat and watched the game. At just 9 months you have become a true hockey fan........I hope that continues because I love sitting down and watching a game with you.

But I guess with the good comes the bad, I am soooo tired today. You have been amazing the past 4 nights. Sleeping through the night waking up at 10:00 am and truly allowing mommy and I to sleep but last night you were in one of those moods where you refused to sleep, refused to calm down. Today I feel like a zombie at work and I know mommy was dead tired when I left this morning. A stubborn little monkey you are.......cannot fall asleep unless mommy breast feeds you or if you are lying in our arms.........but you have to change monkey. We need you to sleep on your own, we need you to eat and drink on your own.....please be a big girl.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Thank you

Tuesday, March 17 2009 8: 12 am

Hey baby......thank you. By the time I got home yesterday mommy said that you had eaten all the food she prepared for you and you even took 2 naps today. By the time I came home from work, you were in an amazing mood and you were smiling from ear to ear. To celebrate daddy took you shopping and bought you your first Montreal Canadiens Hockey Jersey. We are going to wear it with pride when we go to the game on Thursday.

But the good news did not stop there. Auntie Karen and Rehana came by last night just to see you. By the time they arrived you were already a little sleepy but regardless you stayed up for a little bit before having your bath. Mommy came downstairs at 8:30 and told me that you were already sleeping. You went out pretty much right away but the good news is that you pretty much went out for the night. You awoke around 1:00 am but quickly settled back down to sleep and stayed that way until morning. You were such a good girl last night and I thank you so very very much.

Let's hope that this continues monkey because mommy and daddy really need some sleep.
We love you !!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Long weekend

Montreal, Quebec, Monday March 16, 2009 8:13 am

Hey monkey.....why won't you sleep. Mommy and daddy are sooooo tired right now but you just won't sleep. 2 nights ago daddy was the one who stayed up with you. We put you to bed at around 7:30 and you slept to about 11:30 but from that point on you would wake every 45 minutes or so......you are exhausted, you are cranky yet you just refuse to sleep. You absolutely hate being alone but we have heard way too many horror stories from parents who bring there children into bed. The only alternatives are to let you cry all night or to stay by your bed side. Mommy believes that letting you cry to figure it out is what will work best but I hate it. I hate walking into your room and seeing the tears flow down as you standing your crib and call out dada dada. Please baby you have to start sleeping because you are tiring us out so much.

2 nights ago I stayed by your bed side all night long. I was there from 11:30 until 6:45 in the morning just sitting in your rocking chair, dozing in and out. You look like such an angel holding onto your little frog stuffy grasping your ear and staring right into my eyes. You are so stubborn though because you are so quiet and peaceful as long as you know I am there.......but will scream and scratch yourself the second you realize I might be back in my room. We think you suffer from separation anxiety but your doctor just says it is typical baby reactions. Either way monkey, please start to sleep on your own because mommy and daddy are getting no more than 3 hours of sleep a night. Please angel.........I love you.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Diary for My Little Monkey

Life is short, anyone can be here today and gone tomorrow. I want to make everyday count should my time come to pass. I have wanted to do this for quite some time, but have never really had the opportunity to sit down and figure this out. One day I hope you can sit down and read this entire posting and appreciate the love the have for you and what you have meant to us both. Truth is my life changed about 9 months ago when my beautiful wife and your wonderful mom Melody gave birth to such a precious gift, thats you my Little Monkey.

Your mom and I were never the loving parents type, we awere afraid that a child would change our retirement plans, our vacation plans and our life in general. Although Auntie Kimmy and Amanada had children of their own, the family bug never really hit your mom and I as we were too busy doing the things we loved. What we didn't realize is that although some of these immaterial things may have changed, what you have brought into our lives is just beyond words. You mean the life to your mom and I and one day many years from now when you reflect back on this......you will know it.

Montreal, Qc, Canada March 12th, 8:30 am

You are days removed removed from your 9 month birthday. These past 9 months have seen so many ups and downs that I cannot even begin to explain. You have grown so fast from that little 7 lb, 10 oz bundle of joy when you came out June 11 2008 to the now crawling and cooeing highlite of my day. You have grown from a crying little girl, to the apple of my eye. You are still not able to say mommy or mom which is something I remind Mel of every day but my heart melts when you look right at me, open your arms and call out dada. An overwhelming sense of achievement rushes through my body, as I walk through the doors from work every day. You are growing way too fast my little monkey.....but you are getting cuter and cuter with each passing second.

I cannot go on much longer because to be 100% honest with you, I am exhausted. You are more than a handful at night as your stubborness refuses to fall asleep alone. Most days you do not nap, most nights you refuse to fall asleep, and every night you wake up continuously calling out my name...dada....dada. Mommy slept for 2 hours last night even though you are already 9 months and despite the fact that I stayed in bed, I slept to more than maybe 3 or 3.5 hours. We have only 2 and half more months to try to sleep and nap train you before you start daycare but everything we try ends in disaster. This morning I picked you up and held you on my chest and as I ksised those bubbly little cheeks, I begged and pleaded for you to just try to learn to sleep on your own love. Let mommy and daddy sleep.