Monday, May 25, 2009

Getting so Big

Oh monkey you are getting so big.
We are just a couple of weeks away from your 1st birthday and your development the past few weeks has been tremendous. You are slowly but surely growing on a daily basis and it is just so amazing to watch.

For months mommy has been trying to get you to learn how to clap your hands. Everyday for minutes on end we would try. It got to the point where you would put your hands high in the air and be proud of yourself but for some reason, you just wouldn't clap them together. Then for some reason you woke up one day and just got it. You clapped your hands, smiled and screamed.....so adorable.

Then there is the feeding yourself. We have never tried to get you to do this.....but for some reason you went from depending on us to feed you to not wanting to have any help at all. You want to grab the spoon yourself, feed yourself and then off course occasionally wear your dish as a hat. That one is always popular with mommy. There is truly nothing cuter then an 11 month old baby with a plated of pasta in her hair.

Usually these sort of things are all experienced my mommy first, she films it and then lets me watch it when I get home. It sucks to never get to see these sort of things until after the fact but just to watch you grow is so rewarding.

But......this weekend was beautiful and so daddy decided to take you to the park. On Saturday afternoon we went to the swings for a few minutes and then on Sunday we went for almost 3 hours. The swings were amazing, because you smile from ear to ear and absolutely have a blast but what I enjoyed more was setting you down in the grass for the first time. You were so afraid and freaked out to put your hands down in this new substance. After about 10-15 minutes you got the hang of it and then crawled all over the place. Sprinting through the dandilions, pulling grass out of the ground and then if mommy knew what you were doing with the grass I would never be allowed to take you out alone again.

It was great.

You are growing so fast monkey........daddy's little girl will soon be 1.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

An omen?

Hey there monkey,

Daddy has been so worried lately about the thought of a stranger raising you at a Daycare. Regardless of how we felt mommy and daddy went visiting and found one close to home. The Daycare only spoke french so mommy was a little weary about that plus there were no children around your same age so there were a few negatives but despite that, we visited, read the enclosed material and then called the Daycare worker to enroll you.

Well despite being told that the spot was yours, we were now informed that the available spot was simply given to another child. I admit that we were both upset but is this an omen?

Is it a message that we should not have enrolled you in such a Daycare? Are we better off trying to keep you to be raised by family rather than some strangers? For now I would like to think yes but only time will tell. Until then let's cross our fingers and hope that Auntie Amanda, Grandma and Grandpa Willey and grandma Chow can watch you until the end of the summer.

Love you monkey.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

DayCare

Hey Monkey,

This weekend saw a huge step in our lives. We visited your potential daycare. I have been worried for months on what we could do with you once mommy is ready to go back to work but it only really hits you when you see your little monkey in the hands of a complete stranger. I always knew that Daycare was the way we had to go but I really don't want to see my little girl raised by an alternative new mom......a stranger. I have no idea how other families do this but I would do anything to allow mommy to stay home with you, maybe work a part time shift somewhere just so that we can teach you the values that be live by. Just so that you do not wrap your arms and find comfort in a complete stranger. I do not think that this is possible for us monkey but I have 2 more months to possibly find a solution to this problem.

Know that we will always love you monkey. That will never change.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

First weekend away

Hey monkey,

Man, you are already 10 months old going on 11 months in just 12 days, how time really flies. Man are you ever growing so quickly, but to be honest I am loving every single minute of it. But with that said, this weekend is the first weekend that we will not be together. I enjoy spending every single second of every day together and it is going to break my heart to not wake up with you on the weekends, to not play with you and enjoy the precious little time we have together. Daddy unfortunately has to work all night Friday, all day Saturday and then for most of Sunday.

Anyway monkey I know you'll never remember thisbut just remember that this entire weekend you will be in my thoughts.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Summer is here

Hey Monkey,

I just had myself a wonderful weekend. The temperature approached 30 degrees and we were able to go out as a family and just spend some time together. Although the day started slowly when we went to Auntie Amanda's place, we were eventually able to leave. Did our shopping and then went down to the Riverside for a nice walk along the water. Daddy was supposed to stay home and do some house work but with next weekend being a wash because daddy has to work, I wanted to spend some time with you, and it was definitely worth it.

The problem of course is that now daddy has to do double the work in 2 weekends from now and of course because of the temperature change, you are now a sick little monkey. Your nose is running badly, you have developed a little cough, and sleeping has become a chore unto itself. This summer is going to be great little one. Although you were around last year, you were so small that we really could not do too much. This year we are planning some big things. Lake James, Toronto, maybe even going away to the Caribbean for a bit. Heres hoping to a great summer monkey.

I love you.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

There is no greater joy.....

.......Then to sit down with your daughter and mutually enjoy the same thing. It appears as though you are truly becoming a fan of hockey. Last night was game 3 of the Montreal Vs Boston series and although the game did not turn out as expected it really doesn't matter because we spent some time watching it together. I am not sure what it is but you really seem to get up and start to scream when a hockey game comes across our TV.

Yesterday I decided that it was time to teach you the charge chant. Da na na na na naaaaaaa..........Charge. Da na na na na naaaaaaa........charge. Da na na na, da na na na, da na na na, da na na na na naaaaaaa....charge. Well monkey by the third time of doing this, you seemed to catch on because with your Montreal Canadians towel in your left hand waiving it in the air.....daddy would start it off......Da na na na na naaaaaaa..........and yes you would follow up with a cute little chaaaaaaa. At least that is what I think you said. You must have done this for a good 10 minutes, lunging your left hand forward and throwing out a Chaaaaaa......every time it came to the crucial part of the chant. Such a simple little thing, but certainly something that brought me lots of joy.......

I absolutely love the fact that Daddy can bring his little girl to the games and that we can both enjoy it. Now we gotta work on mommy.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Summer is around the corner

Hey Monkey,

t looks like summer is right around the corner. You were born in June of last year so never really got to enjoy a Montreal summer. This will be your first. There is truly nothing like spending a summer is Montreal. The weather, the festivals, the people, the food, the atmosphere....it truly is a wonderful place to be. I cannot wait to go to the park with you, to go to old Montreal, to la Ronde (OK maybe not this year). Auntie Amanda and the boys are even trying to plan a trip to the 6 Flags theme park in Lake James, NY so you can visit the Looney Tunes characters. This will truly be a great summer for us all.

Until then it feels great to have you our of your snow suit, out of those big bulky sweaters and allowing you to feel the warm Montreal sun on your cheeks. If the weather is nice maybe this weekend we can take a bicycle ride to the island where we can stop for a piknik? I can;t wait to see you crawling around in the grass for the first time.

Anyway monkey I am so excited to think we can spend a first summer together. You, me and mommy, together.

Friday, April 17, 2009

First playoff game

There is was, Thursday April 16th 2009.....Boston Vs Montreal.
You have already been to quite a few hockey games including Ottawa, Montreal and the NYR and you generally look like you enjoy hockey. Perhaps it is the noises, the sounds of the crowd, the colors of the jerseys, I am not sure but you generally enjoy the game. When the Go Habs Go begins to fill the arena something happens inside of you and you begin to scream and yell. Looking so adorable in your little pink Habs jersey, daddy enjoying the moment.

I have been on the fence for years as to whether I should put my name down for season tickets but seeing how much you enjoy the game, it is time. It is time that I look into buying season tickets.

Perhaps for now you are too young to truly enjoy the play but by the time the waiting list comes to me you will be old enough to make it a father-daughter bonding. My biggest passion......while at the same time watching the game.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

What a bad night

Hey Monkey,

I am not sure if you have started teething or if you were just in a cranky mood but your emotions and actions were all over the place. When I first came home from work you were calm and playing with your toys with a big smile on your face but by the time dinner came around you became cranky and screamed quite a bit. You would sit and eat, and then out of nowhere scream and cry and then calm down eat some more and scream and cry again. You wanted nothing to do with me but rather just wanted mommy yet despite this you ate you dinner with ease. Alot of drool followed, alot of whining for the rest of the evening but ultimately you ate everything we gave you.

By the time Bedtime came around, things got even worse. It took mommy almost 2 hours to settle you down for bedtime before you were finally out. Or so we thought. Daddy could not sleep at all last night so I just sat in bed and listened to you sleep away. Waking every 10 minutes or so and then dozing back off to your dreams. Then around 4:00 am you seemed to want to wake for good. Woke up screaming and crying and yelling for us to come and get you. It took mommy another hour and a half to put you back down to sleep before you finally awoke for good at 7:00 am.

As I left for work and came into your room and kissed you goodbye as you sat there crying with your hands up. It absolutely breaks my heart to see you like that and sets me off on the wrong foot for work knowing that you are either in pain or in some sort of discomfort. Oh Monkey....you've been so good of late, why this sudden turnaround. Mommy is just a few weeks away from starting work again and it is as if we have to restart all the training all over again.

We love you monkey.....don't you ever forget that.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Your 1st Easter

Hey Monkey,

It's been a while since I wrote you anything so I am long overdue. This weekend you celebrated your 1st Easter. We figured it was something that you would not remember so it was pretty much status quo in terms of our days. We did not make a special meal, we did not go to church, we simply sat down as a family and spent as much time with you as possible. Of course Grandma did give you your first Easter gift as you received a toy and some Easter Eggs from her........so far it looks like you love them...we'll see.

Easter however means 1 thing monkey. Mommy is getting one step closer to going back to work. When she goes back to work.......we are going to have to let you go and spend most of your days with some strangers. I wish daddy made enough money to have mommy stay home with you because it is breaking her heart every day and tearing me apart to see her like that. To spend everyday of her life for a year with you and then to send you to Daycare is just not right. Daddy is having trouble sleeping trying to figure out a way to have mommy stay home with you. I am actually getting teary eyed right now to think that mommy and daddy will only be able to see you part time. I don't want that smile of yours to go away. I don't want you to be more attached to a stranger then to us. Promise that you will always love us Monkey because we work to give you a better life........please do not forget that.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Sleeping

Wednesday April 8, 2009

We went through a spell of a month or so where you just wanted absolutely nothing to do with sleeping. You would wake at all hours of the night, spend a long time sleeping and crying, ultimately fall asleep bent over from pure exhaustion but for the last month or so you have been a little Angel. When it is bedtime, it is bedtime. You hit the mattress and zonk out until morning. Sleep about 11-12 hours consecutively before waking in the morning. To make matters even better, you have on occasion been know to sleep in even later to wake after 10:00 allowing mommy and daddy to sleep in. It just feels so great.

The only downfall is that you sleep so early. Daddy is lucky that I get home from work at 4:30 so I have time to spend with you every day but when mommy starts work in a couple of months then she has been known to get home between 6:45 and 7:00. With you sleeping at 7:30 it just does not give mommy enough time to spend with you.

On another note, I am so lucky to ahve you in my life. Last night watching the late news there was a feature of a young couple in Toronto who have been faced with the dillema of having to turn off a breathing monitor of their little daughter. There little girl Kaylee has a condition which prevents her from sleeping at night. WIthout the monitor she can pass away at any time. Daddy started to cry thinking of what I would do if I was faced witht he same situation. I am getting teary eyed now as I speak of this because the thought of you not in my life is unimaginable. The thought of being faced with such a decision, life altering. I am so fortunate to have you healthy and happy. I love you monkey.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Playtime

Monday, April 6, 2009

Hey baby......turns out the weekend was no as bad as I had thought. Sure the weather was absolute crap but it meant I could not do much work outside and instead remained indoors. A bummer on most days but it meant more play time with you. I was still able to complete alot of the work I need to do......a playroom for you in the basement, cleaned up and organized the TV room, etc....but in the end I was able to just sit with you and play. You seem to love to use me as a jungle GYM monkey, and I absolutely love it. The smile on your face as you climb all over me. Sometimes looking for a hug, sometimes a kiss, sometimes just using me as an anchor so that you can stand up. Whatever you do, as long as I am sitting next to you I feel special.

On a side note, Auntie, Uncle Eric, Tony and Nicky came back from Disney and they had sooooooo much fun. The stories they told us sounded like they truly had a blast. Meeting the characters, getting autographs, taking cool pics and Nicky even completed Jedi schooling to become a full fledged Jedi. I am so glad that they had a great time, they deserve it but now I want to take you so badly. You are too young to enjoy it monkey but I desperately want to bring you.

Friday, April 3, 2009

The weekend approaches

April 3, 2009 8:04 pm

The weekend approaches monkey and it looks like I am going to be way too busy to spend the amount of time that I want to spend with you. The weather has turned fairly nice and daddy has sooooo much work to do on the house, soooo much planned that I fear I will only be able to spend a few moments a day with you and then a few minutes before bedtime. I am already dreading not being able to give you my constant attention this weekend so I hope I don;t start to feel worse.

On another side note......Auntie Amanda, Uncle Eric and Tony and Nick are coming home from Disney today. We are all headed to grandma's for dinner but I am sure we are going to see alot of pictures and hear alot of stories of this wonderful trip....hope you are excited monkey.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Mommy needed a night off

Well Monkey,

Last night you were as good as gold. I called Auntie Karen and untie Jo Jo and asked them to organize a night alone with mommy. I wanted her to get some time alone, relax without having to worry about you, so you and I had the night alone. It was fantastic. We watched a little but of TV and then sat down to eat some dinner. I guess you didn't like my suggestion because the peas and potatoes never really left the plate. I think you enjoyed my dessert selection however as you seemed to gobble that up without breathing. Then the piece de resistance.......puffs. My GOD do you love that stuff.

Anyway you were fantastic last night monkey. After dinner we watched a bit of hockey, then went upstairs for a bath. We splashed and played for about 20 minutes before finally preparing for bed. Mommy usually puts you to bed right away but since she wasn't home I snuck you downstairs to watch the remainder of the Montreal Canadiens Vs Chicago Blackhawks game. You seem to genuinely love hockey and it appeared to put you at ease as you watched the game and fell asleep in daddy's arms.

You went to bed without a peep and slept right straight through until mommy came home and took a shower at around 11:30.......it was a great night and a joy to be alone with y0u monkey.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

My fussy little monkey

Tuesday March 31, 2009

Hey Monkey,

We just found out that for the first time you are suffering from a minor infection. You have had a cold for about 3 weeks now but this weekend it seemed to turn for the worse as the cough turned wet, the nose mucus became yellow and you began to grasp your ear more and more. You have always done the ear grabbing thing as it appears to help you relax but the frequency at which you are doing it became apparent that maybe something is wrong. As it turns out, you have a minor ear, throat and sinus infection that requires treatment. Naturally you absolutely hate the stuff so trying to get you to take your medication is a battle within itself. Why are you such a fussy little thing? Why do you not eat your food? Why can you not take a bottle? Why can you not sleep on your own? Why is it that you are good as gold when with mommy and daddy but if Grandma or grandpa try to babysit you, you become so difficult and just scream and cry the entire time?

Mommy is going back to work in about 2 months and there is just so much more that you have to learn. We are worried about you monkey. You seem to suffer from separation anxiety and we are just not sure that you will get over it by the time mommy goes back to work.

Monday, March 30, 2009

What a bad weekend

Monday, March 30, 2009.

Hey Monkey,

That was the weekend from hell. On Friday you were so very very sick. I guess it was something you ate but you vomited about 10-12 times before daddy was even able to get home from work. It breaks my heart to see you like that, knowing very well that there is nothing that I can do. To see you so obviously very sick, crying out "dada dada" but ultimately offering nothing more than my love. We tried our best to keep you hydrated but still you would vomit out whatever we gave you. You had us so very worried little monkey but luckily by Saturday you were fine but whatever you had, you gave to Mommy and Daddy. We were both so very sick on Sunday and had to give you to grandma and grandpa while we slept. Lucky they were home because it allowed mommy and daddy the time to sleep, and sleep we did. We slept about 20 hours on Sunday and yet we are still so very tired and dizzy.

I want to write so much more but I am still so very dizzy and just want to sleep.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

There is no greater feeling in the world then to have a long and stressful day at work but to come home walk in through the door, hang up your coat and to watch your little monkey catch a glimpse of you and smile. That is exactly what you do. The moment you notice I am home from work or from going to the store or whatever it may be, a smile comes across your face and you then slowly begin to crawl towards me. It has become a habit this week! You struggle and grunt and pant as you make your way across the floor and sit beside my leg. You rest for a second, catch your breath and then grab hold of my pant leg and pull yourself up before finally looking skyward, opening your arms slowly and calling out "dada dada".

Any stress or for that matter anything else that may be on my mind is washed away with every little thing you do. Yes it is frustrating when you barely eat or barely sleep. Sometimes it is hard when mommy and daddy try to spend a little private time together. But a look into your eyes and my heart melts. You mean the world to me. You are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to us. We love you monkey.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Wednesday, March 25 8:11 am

2 nights in a row you have slept right through the night. Mommy and daddy are well rested and because you are getting enough sleep you are in a constant good mood. Let's hope you keep this up little monkey.

Last night we went to Auntie Amanada's house for dinner. We went to go see her before the family goes to Disney World. I am sooooo jealous because when you were still in the tummy of mommy we went to Disney as well. Seeing all those little girls smiling ear to ear dressed up as Cinderella or Snow White or Belle just made me anxious for the day that we can bring you. Mommy and daddy talk about this all the time because I am hoping to do so at age 3 but mommy wants to wait until you are much older. I just can't wait to see you running around in the happiest place on earth. I guess until that day can happen, we will just try to make you smile everyday regardless.

Monday, March 23, 2009

March 23rd, 2009

Hey Monkey, left me first tell you that we are back from Ottawa and you were such an amazing little girl. Mommy and daddy took you to the Ottawa-Montreal hockey game in Ottawa. Before the game I bought you a little pink Habs jersey. Its a little big so you will be able ton wear it for at least another year. Now you, mommy and I each have a Habs jersey to wear with pride. At the game you were the highlight of the game and every fan sitting in our area was in awe of how well you behaved. When the Go Habs Go chant began to gain momentum, you started to scream and yell. When the play quieted down you simply sat and watched the game. At just 9 months you have become a true hockey fan........I hope that continues because I love sitting down and watching a game with you.

But I guess with the good comes the bad, I am soooo tired today. You have been amazing the past 4 nights. Sleeping through the night waking up at 10:00 am and truly allowing mommy and I to sleep but last night you were in one of those moods where you refused to sleep, refused to calm down. Today I feel like a zombie at work and I know mommy was dead tired when I left this morning. A stubborn little monkey you are.......cannot fall asleep unless mommy breast feeds you or if you are lying in our arms.........but you have to change monkey. We need you to sleep on your own, we need you to eat and drink on your own.....please be a big girl.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Thank you

Tuesday, March 17 2009 8: 12 am

Hey baby......thank you. By the time I got home yesterday mommy said that you had eaten all the food she prepared for you and you even took 2 naps today. By the time I came home from work, you were in an amazing mood and you were smiling from ear to ear. To celebrate daddy took you shopping and bought you your first Montreal Canadiens Hockey Jersey. We are going to wear it with pride when we go to the game on Thursday.

But the good news did not stop there. Auntie Karen and Rehana came by last night just to see you. By the time they arrived you were already a little sleepy but regardless you stayed up for a little bit before having your bath. Mommy came downstairs at 8:30 and told me that you were already sleeping. You went out pretty much right away but the good news is that you pretty much went out for the night. You awoke around 1:00 am but quickly settled back down to sleep and stayed that way until morning. You were such a good girl last night and I thank you so very very much.

Let's hope that this continues monkey because mommy and daddy really need some sleep.
We love you !!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Long weekend

Montreal, Quebec, Monday March 16, 2009 8:13 am

Hey monkey.....why won't you sleep. Mommy and daddy are sooooo tired right now but you just won't sleep. 2 nights ago daddy was the one who stayed up with you. We put you to bed at around 7:30 and you slept to about 11:30 but from that point on you would wake every 45 minutes or so......you are exhausted, you are cranky yet you just refuse to sleep. You absolutely hate being alone but we have heard way too many horror stories from parents who bring there children into bed. The only alternatives are to let you cry all night or to stay by your bed side. Mommy believes that letting you cry to figure it out is what will work best but I hate it. I hate walking into your room and seeing the tears flow down as you standing your crib and call out dada dada. Please baby you have to start sleeping because you are tiring us out so much.

2 nights ago I stayed by your bed side all night long. I was there from 11:30 until 6:45 in the morning just sitting in your rocking chair, dozing in and out. You look like such an angel holding onto your little frog stuffy grasping your ear and staring right into my eyes. You are so stubborn though because you are so quiet and peaceful as long as you know I am there.......but will scream and scratch yourself the second you realize I might be back in my room. We think you suffer from separation anxiety but your doctor just says it is typical baby reactions. Either way monkey, please start to sleep on your own because mommy and daddy are getting no more than 3 hours of sleep a night. Please angel.........I love you.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Diary for My Little Monkey

Life is short, anyone can be here today and gone tomorrow. I want to make everyday count should my time come to pass. I have wanted to do this for quite some time, but have never really had the opportunity to sit down and figure this out. One day I hope you can sit down and read this entire posting and appreciate the love the have for you and what you have meant to us both. Truth is my life changed about 9 months ago when my beautiful wife and your wonderful mom Melody gave birth to such a precious gift, thats you my Little Monkey.

Your mom and I were never the loving parents type, we awere afraid that a child would change our retirement plans, our vacation plans and our life in general. Although Auntie Kimmy and Amanada had children of their own, the family bug never really hit your mom and I as we were too busy doing the things we loved. What we didn't realize is that although some of these immaterial things may have changed, what you have brought into our lives is just beyond words. You mean the life to your mom and I and one day many years from now when you reflect back on this......you will know it.

Montreal, Qc, Canada March 12th, 8:30 am

You are days removed removed from your 9 month birthday. These past 9 months have seen so many ups and downs that I cannot even begin to explain. You have grown so fast from that little 7 lb, 10 oz bundle of joy when you came out June 11 2008 to the now crawling and cooeing highlite of my day. You have grown from a crying little girl, to the apple of my eye. You are still not able to say mommy or mom which is something I remind Mel of every day but my heart melts when you look right at me, open your arms and call out dada. An overwhelming sense of achievement rushes through my body, as I walk through the doors from work every day. You are growing way too fast my little monkey.....but you are getting cuter and cuter with each passing second.

I cannot go on much longer because to be 100% honest with you, I am exhausted. You are more than a handful at night as your stubborness refuses to fall asleep alone. Most days you do not nap, most nights you refuse to fall asleep, and every night you wake up continuously calling out my name...dada....dada. Mommy slept for 2 hours last night even though you are already 9 months and despite the fact that I stayed in bed, I slept to more than maybe 3 or 3.5 hours. We have only 2 and half more months to try to sleep and nap train you before you start daycare but everything we try ends in disaster. This morning I picked you up and held you on my chest and as I ksised those bubbly little cheeks, I begged and pleaded for you to just try to learn to sleep on your own love. Let mommy and daddy sleep.